Mess of thoughts

I really do need some fucking clearity in my life right now... Mabye some inspiration would do it but its not like you can buy inspiration treasure maps, although that would be nice. The last little while i have felt stuck, so i thought in my boredom i might aswell dig some of the past up which was a bumpy route to take. Where to go is really a difficult question sometimes and also what to do? I find myself searching for advise alot when i don't even want to hear it. I think some good deciscion making needs to be done for me to gain some momentem. Definetly time to let go of the past. Its so weird though because the past is moments of time that have gone, but it still has the power to effect your life even more then the present or future. I guess all i wanna do is take some risk cause playing life safe can really bring ya down. And its not like i am looking to go sky diving naked, i suppose i just have to stop giving so much regard to the opinions of others even if they are my friends. Well there's my update finally!! and i hope you all have sexy and spooky halloween!!

California

Well I must admit it has been way way way!!!! to long since my last post and i apoligize... I have been staying in california for the last month or so doing an intense school of improv called the "Groundlings" which has been a blast!! Also i have been cast in a improv/sketch comedy show called "lost episodes" on this little stage in north hollywood and it has been pretty crazy and it goes up tonight so i am pretty stoaked. I must say i do miss everyone back on the island and i cannot wait to hang out with everyone espeacially MR BLACK! I have to say i have been having extremely odd and real like dreams here i suppose because of the heat and i must share one. It started out in a zombie like town but with a feel of ladysmith in there. Me, Gregiore, Kylan, Martha, Jill and Geoff where walking through the town looking for some way to get out! We then walked by a few townsfolk and approached them to ask where we might find a phone? As we got closer we realized the had saliva drooling from there mouths and it looked as if some one had shoved a needle with dentist freezing stuff into the back of there heads! So we acted as if nothing was up and continued down the street and finally we found a dentist clinic!! So we all went in to see if we could use the phone to call some one. Kylan then said upon entering" Sexy frontdesk chich" Martha then smoothly rolled her eyes at him and kylan giggled like a girl. The dentist came out and he looked like an 11 foot version of brad mackey but with an eye patch!! The lot of us were spooked.... Gregiore smoothly said "Excuse me sir but we need to use a phone if you might have one?" in his most pursaisive and sexy voice. The monster brad mackey retorted with"Can't you see the front desk girl is using it now come into my back room and watch my disney movies with me!!!!!!" So all of us proceeded into the back room entering through a gigantic glass door, the only kind suitable for a monster brad mackey with an eye patch! We sat down in the dimly lit room with suprisingly comfortable chairs at which Jill mentioned" These are some sweet ass chairs man" Monster B.M. Chuckled at this with green flem dripping down his lip. he turned on the movie and it was a projection screen. It began and we were all horrified at the sight of it! It was monster Brad Mackey pullin his pud with a bunch of stuffed disney toys around him. There was a good amount of silence with only gregiore having the courage to break it with"You have a horrible singing voice man!And i gotta pee where's your washroom?" Me and gregiore then went to find the toilet while the rest of everyone sat and endured watching an 11 foot brad mackey spooge on a bunch of stuffed disney characters singing something from lion king at the top of his lunghs!! As soon as we closed the Giant glass door me and gregiore made a break for the entrance and found our selves on the street! We looked and saw a gigantic bycicle infront of the dentist office suprised we hadn't noticed it when we entered. gregiore looked at me with a look i had never seen in the mans eyes before and said in a hugh Jackman like tone "Lets ride that ridiculously big bycycle outta this town Biff!!!" It took both of us to ride it him on the peddles and me at the bars. We started out slow but soon enough we got momentem and for some reason when i looked down Gregiore was naked and laughing so hard everytime he zoomed around on the peddles! We made our way toward nanaimo and all of a sudden heard the scream only a Monster brad mackey could make and i woke up!!

I apoligize for those who were left at the dentist and hope this dream inspires others!!

its like butter

man i am so overdue for this trip even though i leave on wensday! I can't wait to be on the ferry with my bro freshly packed and ready to go.... no i won't turn this in to a fly rap although that would be kewl. I finished my 30 day yoga challenge which was nuts and i only missed 2 days so not too shabby we had a big pot luck for all the people that tried it at the end. I haven't seen many theatre peeps for a while which kinda sucks but i suppose i lick the sack at makin plans and everybody is pretty busy so no worries but i hope ya'll have a wicked summer and get exremely high and drunk cause its the extremes of life that are worth livin and remember that!! I have a week and a half to drive down to california so i imagine me and my brother will get in to some shannangins thats right SHANNAGINS on the way down which will be super sweet mabye tip a few cows or sumpthin. I also made total peace with my ex girl friend and we have hung out so much lately which has taken alot off this guys mind. I will defiently miss the river trips this summer with everyone and if possible i would like to request one picture ok so here it is, I would like Gregiore eating a sandwhich with his snorkle mask on with his middle finger in the air and i want jill spanking him!!!! Anyways i will start posting again some time in july with lots of pictures so i will talk to you all then!!

Feelin Good

Ok so i have been hanging out with my ex girlfriend lately and it has been so comfortable around her and after 3 fucking years we are finally able to call the past the past and have fun together as friends again. Its amazing how long life takes when trying to get over things or making peace with events in your life. Although now that i am catching up with her i understand some times u need that long to grow and learn and use that to put things behind and let go of what was. But for some reason our connection now is stronger then before and i like the relationship we have now way more then what we had. I suppose what i learnt through it all is never force or try to struggle for things cause some times its just best to let life run its course and just to always be ready when oppurtunity comes your way. Also its so nice to spend time with my ex and hear her talk about how much of a fuck face some of the guys she has been dating are and agree and feel good it isn't me being the fuck face and laughing my head off. And i suppose i know now no matter how fucked up life is some times and no matter what it throws your way some times bad shit has a good explanation. Anyways i apologize for my lack of bloggidge martha and everyone else but more importantly MARTHA!!!!! but i am now back in action!

Sun Sun Sun Sun Yay

Well its another beautifull sunny day out today man i am luvin it cause that means river trips are gonna be happening!!! I am 15 days in to my 30 day yoga challenge which i am having so much fun with but it is a tough and long haul! I am doing good right now because everything i am doing right now is going to make my california trip that much funner man i cannot wait to hit the waves on venice and seal beach!!! I also came to the realization that my brain is kinda funky and the choices i make in this life are totally fictional choices in a non fictional world. anways enjoy the sunshine people and i will see ya soon!!

old feelings

Well lately i have been in contact with my 1st love and it has been messing with me a bit. I have no idea why life has put me back into contact with her and its a bit difficult to asses everything with her as when i talk to her its both sets of thoughts and feelings when i was with her 2 years ago and just getting to know her again recently. She says she wishes to be friends but i do not feel it to be a genuine want so i dono what to do as it takes alot of energy to work things out with some one you have such a history with. I think the best thing is to just make sure were on good terms but not to set up anyplans to hang out until it comes natural. Also it is really crazy how vulnerable you still are to the people you open yourself up to even after years of no contact. Well i am off to work but a trip to the river with a whack of theatre peeps must be made soon!

Blind guy rocks!

Well i have introduced a new member to the family and she is beautifull... her name you might ask? CLEOPATRA thats right ladies and gentlemen we are now in the presence of egyptian royalty and let me tell you her ancient egyptian magic will kick your ass in two just ask gregiore. Me and Gregiore have been playing alot of nintendo wii lately so a shout goes out to my main man blind guy! Anyways not too much is new in life just cruzin along i suppose enjoying the summer and saving up moolah. I am definetly already stoaked for next year though as i feel adding the third year is just what we need to switch up the feel of the program. I mean the parties will defiently have a little more pizzaz to them. but n e ways just though i would do a half ass update have a good one peoples!