Gonna turn some tunes on to get a little writing flow happening here...just a sec... I am not sure what I really wanna write about today, but I do want to write. I'm content and drinking a glass of wine which I prefer to drinking anything else. Wine is great cause you are smashed with in seconds of drinking it and you sober up just as quick but after a few bottles you are definitely in for a not so nice hangover. I am definitely a fan of white wine. Red wine reminds me of some lonely french guy drinking a cup while chompin a big block of cheese and talking to his cat... Gonna grab another glass... hold on...Okay back. Alright so whats on my mind? I guess reading I have turned in to such a bookworm and am loving it. I never used to read that much but now that I have found some authors that float my boat I am loving every second of it and definitely prefer fantasy and science fiction. It's the best feeling to get lost in a book because once you lose yourself and wake up out of it you realize you left your life behind for a while, all of your worries and commits had melted away for that moment. I find I can't lose my self with video games or movies as I can with books. There is always atleast a small part of myself preoccupied with the future or past but when I dive in to a great book I find I am fully in the present and I must say it feels fantabulous! It's almost that euphoric feeling of being in a dream where everything is action and the moment rather then being stuck in thought. I also find the more I read the less I enjoy watching T.V. or movies or video games which has frightened me a tad bit. Man this wine is tastey and is to be sipped not guzzled down I have learned :) After writing about reading I know crave to go read so be safe, be sexy and most of all BE REAL!

The Healing Light Institute of Spirituality

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." The above speech by Nelson Mandela was orignally written by Marianne Williamson who is the author of other similar material."

Just thought I would share a quote that I know live by and has helped me through the most lost of times. If you are ever questioning or doubting yourself give this a read and turn your frown upside down :)

I'm Back!

Hey all I is back in action on the blogging! Dunno why I stopped but the important thing is I am back on the wagon. I am still in Los Angeles rockin the acting career and learning alot. This town has gotten really small over the time I have been here and my best advice on attacking this city is be yourself and don't fall in to the bullshit most people try to throw at ya here cause there is alot of it. So many slick rick's faking like they are power players in the buisness so definitely do your research before working or signing with anyone. And with a little persistence and hardwork you really can do well here but tough skin is a plus. I miss home and am moving back for a while well my work papers get sorted out so that will be great to send some much needed time with my friends and fam. I am reading a cool book right now called Acheron and finished another by the same author called Dream Warrior both of which are superb! They are about Gods of all realms and written by Sherrylin Kenyon. She really does her research on actual gods so everything is true with beliefs of gods and what they represent. I would have to say my favorite character so far would be Azmodieous, he is a little demon who is owned by a Evil god named noir and he is always cracking cheap jokes in the worst of situations. Zeus however is this book is shown as a ruthless and tormented god almost to the point of having similair values and morals to that of Hitler which suprised me as I always think of him in a "Little Mermaid" fashion... Anyways I am happy with life and ready for the next chapter of it! I hope its filled with some more good books to read and maybe some good loving from a pretty girl! I will be posting alot from now on so talk to ya all soon and be real!

Mess of thoughts

I really do need some fucking clearity in my life right now... Mabye some inspiration would do it but its not like you can buy inspiration treasure maps, although that would be nice. The last little while i have felt stuck, so i thought in my boredom i might aswell dig some of the past up which was a bumpy route to take. Where to go is really a difficult question sometimes and also what to do? I find myself searching for advise alot when i don't even want to hear it. I think some good deciscion making needs to be done for me to gain some momentem. Definetly time to let go of the past. Its so weird though because the past is moments of time that have gone, but it still has the power to effect your life even more then the present or future. I guess all i wanna do is take some risk cause playing life safe can really bring ya down. And its not like i am looking to go sky diving naked, i suppose i just have to stop giving so much regard to the opinions of others even if they are my friends. Well there's my update finally!! and i hope you all have sexy and spooky halloween!!

California

Well I must admit it has been way way way!!!! to long since my last post and i apoligize... I have been staying in california for the last month or so doing an intense school of improv called the "Groundlings" which has been a blast!! Also i have been cast in a improv/sketch comedy show called "lost episodes" on this little stage in north hollywood and it has been pretty crazy and it goes up tonight so i am pretty stoaked. I must say i do miss everyone back on the island and i cannot wait to hang out with everyone espeacially MR BLACK! I have to say i have been having extremely odd and real like dreams here i suppose because of the heat and i must share one. It started out in a zombie like town but with a feel of ladysmith in there. Me, Gregiore, Kylan, Martha, Jill and Geoff where walking through the town looking for some way to get out! We then walked by a few townsfolk and approached them to ask where we might find a phone? As we got closer we realized the had saliva drooling from there mouths and it looked as if some one had shoved a needle with dentist freezing stuff into the back of there heads! So we acted as if nothing was up and continued down the street and finally we found a dentist clinic!! So we all went in to see if we could use the phone to call some one. Kylan then said upon entering" Sexy frontdesk chich" Martha then smoothly rolled her eyes at him and kylan giggled like a girl. The dentist came out and he looked like an 11 foot version of brad mackey but with an eye patch!! The lot of us were spooked.... Gregiore smoothly said "Excuse me sir but we need to use a phone if you might have one?" in his most pursaisive and sexy voice. The monster brad mackey retorted with"Can't you see the front desk girl is using it now come into my back room and watch my disney movies with me!!!!!!" So all of us proceeded into the back room entering through a gigantic glass door, the only kind suitable for a monster brad mackey with an eye patch! We sat down in the dimly lit room with suprisingly comfortable chairs at which Jill mentioned" These are some sweet ass chairs man" Monster B.M. Chuckled at this with green flem dripping down his lip. he turned on the movie and it was a projection screen. It began and we were all horrified at the sight of it! It was monster Brad Mackey pullin his pud with a bunch of stuffed disney toys around him. There was a good amount of silence with only gregiore having the courage to break it with"You have a horrible singing voice man!And i gotta pee where's your washroom?" Me and gregiore then went to find the toilet while the rest of everyone sat and endured watching an 11 foot brad mackey spooge on a bunch of stuffed disney characters singing something from lion king at the top of his lunghs!! As soon as we closed the Giant glass door me and gregiore made a break for the entrance and found our selves on the street! We looked and saw a gigantic bycicle infront of the dentist office suprised we hadn't noticed it when we entered. gregiore looked at me with a look i had never seen in the mans eyes before and said in a hugh Jackman like tone "Lets ride that ridiculously big bycycle outta this town Biff!!!" It took both of us to ride it him on the peddles and me at the bars. We started out slow but soon enough we got momentem and for some reason when i looked down Gregiore was naked and laughing so hard everytime he zoomed around on the peddles! We made our way toward nanaimo and all of a sudden heard the scream only a Monster brad mackey could make and i woke up!!

I apoligize for those who were left at the dentist and hope this dream inspires others!!

its like butter

man i am so overdue for this trip even though i leave on wensday! I can't wait to be on the ferry with my bro freshly packed and ready to go.... no i won't turn this in to a fly rap although that would be kewl. I finished my 30 day yoga challenge which was nuts and i only missed 2 days so not too shabby we had a big pot luck for all the people that tried it at the end. I haven't seen many theatre peeps for a while which kinda sucks but i suppose i lick the sack at makin plans and everybody is pretty busy so no worries but i hope ya'll have a wicked summer and get exremely high and drunk cause its the extremes of life that are worth livin and remember that!! I have a week and a half to drive down to california so i imagine me and my brother will get in to some shannangins thats right SHANNAGINS on the way down which will be super sweet mabye tip a few cows or sumpthin. I also made total peace with my ex girl friend and we have hung out so much lately which has taken alot off this guys mind. I will defiently miss the river trips this summer with everyone and if possible i would like to request one picture ok so here it is, I would like Gregiore eating a sandwhich with his snorkle mask on with his middle finger in the air and i want jill spanking him!!!! Anyways i will start posting again some time in july with lots of pictures so i will talk to you all then!!

Feelin Good

Ok so i have been hanging out with my ex girlfriend lately and it has been so comfortable around her and after 3 fucking years we are finally able to call the past the past and have fun together as friends again. Its amazing how long life takes when trying to get over things or making peace with events in your life. Although now that i am catching up with her i understand some times u need that long to grow and learn and use that to put things behind and let go of what was. But for some reason our connection now is stronger then before and i like the relationship we have now way more then what we had. I suppose what i learnt through it all is never force or try to struggle for things cause some times its just best to let life run its course and just to always be ready when oppurtunity comes your way. Also its so nice to spend time with my ex and hear her talk about how much of a fuck face some of the guys she has been dating are and agree and feel good it isn't me being the fuck face and laughing my head off. And i suppose i know now no matter how fucked up life is some times and no matter what it throws your way some times bad shit has a good explanation. Anyways i apologize for my lack of bloggidge martha and everyone else but more importantly MARTHA!!!!! but i am now back in action!