Procrastinating

Fuck does it ever drive me up the wall! I procrastinate so much and all it does usually is manifest guilt. And sometimes it is over the simplest of tasks like making a phone call or shooting an e mail to some one. I have had this cycle of leaving things till the last second since pre school and it is such an easy thing to fix. I find organization skills definitely assist in eliminating most situations of avoidance. i dunno what it stems from but I have had it effect pretty much every area of my life. From relationships to homework and sometimes just getting together with friends. I some times will find other productive things to do just so I feel good about getting something done instead of doing what needs to be done. Some times I will leave something for so long that I cannot eat or even sleep. I am trying my best to avoid this now as it does nothing for me but fuck my life up and creates a mood where I cannot enjoy the present moment at all as I have this crappy task hanging over my head and the more I avoid it the harder the task is to do and the more the guilt will manifest. I have a few phone calls I need to make today and one of them I don't wanna make because the person is upset with me. But why do I avoid it when all that is doing is making the situation worse. If anyone reads this and has some suggestions other then just doing the task at hand maybe some ways to motivate my self or a way I can easily avoid this please let me know because it eats away at me in the worse kind of way. I will now go make those phone calls, that I promise! Anyways hope your all having a fab day! And Again camping would be decent with a nice roster of theatre peeps!